I’ve been thinking about you since our conversation this morning. Anything I could tell you you probably know already. But this verse came to mind:
Be still and know that I am God (Psalm 46:10).
There are some habits in your life that are specifically designed by you for the purpose of avoiding the deepest realities. You like to constantly be on the go because you have demons chasing you, and your hope is to outrun them. If you aren’t physically going, then your mind is going as you plan the next two years worth of activities. But the demons are always right there in the rear view, just waiting for you to stop.
But what if along with those demons, Jesus is also there? What if you stopped, turned around, and faced them. They are chasing you because they have a right. Your fear, your insecurity, your unforgiveness for yourself and others is attracting them like raw meat to a wolf pack. If you face them squarely, trusting Jesus to heal those things in you, they will go away, and you will be left in perfect peace. Be still. Feel whatever you have been trying not to feel. Ask God to show you what is so terrifying in your thoughts that you don’t want him to bring up. This is where you will grow. This is truth, and the outcome belongs to God. God wants you to be still and let him show you. He has a really good idea what you need for wholeness and happiness, and can only show you if you will be still.
There are things that need to be faced, confessed, spoken. Among the 100 billion other things God is up to with COVID19, let this be one of them, and this will have been the most important few months of your whole life on earth.